Torn In between

Torn in between me and reality.
What i see what i feel and what I'm supposed to do.  Three men one heart and a lost key. One is the man one is the cutie one is the one who gives me a few feelings. They all know a different side of me but none of them know the same. It sounds insane but i have so much in my brain.  Mind body and soul i guess they just don't agree on who I am and who i need to be.
One wants the money, one wants the love, one wants the dream but i can't have all three.  One wants a home, two someone to hold the other a life to call their own. 
I want heaven I fear hell  i live on earth.  Stuck in between I can't figure out me.