He actually broke up with me... after leaving me at his house for four hours with no warning.. I kind of saw it coming but I only pushed the situation by going to jacksonville with a old customer who liked me and was going to pay for my time... being the brat that I am and alcoholic.. I got drunk n mean to customer thought he left and left with these other guys who would take me n my friend home the next day. Well I text billy being honest he blows up cursing ( first time he ever cursed at me) and broke up with me. I don't get it everything was so perfect I spent thanksgiving with him we went shopping.. I was working on trying to express myself more and be more open... I guess that's why I stopped trying in the first place... because of this.. another heartache.. another reason to cry and think ill never fall in love. Ill always be the girl everyone is afraid to love or takes for granted. This world is so lonely.. if its not my loss they want.. its their own selfish motives.. I don't want to give my heart.. but I want someone to earn it :( I really thought he was the one to at least open my eyes to better begginings.
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