The feeling of anxiety overcomes me. My sins drown me in darkness and the room becomes hot. I start to hear things and fear quiets my thoughts and overwhelms my body. I pray and even more it attacks me the feeling of not being worthy of his mercy or precence. But a voice inside tells me that "there is nothing love cannot face" and that is greater than any love there is. Is the love of god. The feeling of calm and tears of joy. When all the faces of the peopke you love appear in your mind because he has blessed you with them. My mother, my grandparents,and the love I need to learn... to love myself. So I play worship music in the night of anoyance... talking to god in my thoughts... sweeping out the evil this night. Because every night is a battle... when you want to call someone to talk to, to vanquish these feelings and moment to spur the thoughts. But no one is around and the only person I should seek is god I want to trust him. And have my faith yell out to him. And feel I only need him. Senor mio dios mio. Ten piedad de mi.
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