Being friends with a girl who has low self esteem and anger issues is harder than it seems. They seem to want all the attention on them and around me being my friend its difficult. Always comparing themself to me expecting compliments when getting ready trying to take the attention off me when we are out. I really don't mind I get attention whenever I want even when I don't want it. But I don't like feeling like this is a competition. Anywho last night with the sugar daddy's turned into a 3 some with the princess not something I really wanted to do. I just wanted to sleep but she ended up naked next to the guy and purposely she asked to request a one huge bed. Whatever I guess but im going to have to do this "thing" on my own. I don't really want to drag her into this and I don't think she gets the point of manipulation towards these stupid men. Its not about sleeping with them this is the first time I did it, ugh. The point is to play with their mind and make them think ONE day they'll get it and if they don't like it kick them to the curb. My goal is find one, that fits my description and necessity and get married. Totally against what I think my purpose is but im so lost right now and this is what im living right now. God I know im doing wrong, and im sorry. I just don't always get the purpose of life.
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